I thought that I’d been tested in life before, but I have realized that I haven’t.  I have already written a post, here, about patiently waiting for my little one to come.  I’m nearly 41 weeks, actually 1 day away and it doesn’t look like little has any plans of coming soon.  Maybe little one does, who knows?  As a woman, I feel like I’ve done something wrong.  I keep going over in my mind, why am I not going into labor?  Why isn’t my body doing what its supposed to do?  Why isn’t nature taking its course?  I have a body that works like clockwork.  I always had a normal period, whether I was on birth control or not.  I think to myself, my due date couldn’t have been off.  I know exactly when my last period was and I’m pretty certain of the conception date as well.  So that seems to be reason #1 out the window.  Reason #2, I’m a first time mom, this is my first baby.  Yes, this is a very valid reason, but there are plenty of women who have first babies all the time and go into labor naturally.  Reason #3, maybe subconsciously I’m just not ready or my body isn’t.  Continue reading →